I thought I had grown up, really...

So, Elijah's playing baseball now with the 5-6 Coach pitch league out here in Howard County, MD where we live. I thought, YAY! I'm a sports mom now... little did I realize I am only pledging this sorority, I am not even in the process of hazing yet... the families on my son's team are nice, but LIGHT YEARS ahead of me in sports involvement for their kids... I'm just a single-sporting mom at this point.

Another thing I noticed is that I am one of 2 young moms... the assistant coach, Jenn is super nice. She's a single mom and is my age so I got that goin' for me, which is nice. All of the other moms are from fairly upper-middle to upper class families which inspires a lot of, "Wow! You are in the military???" That's strike one against me... strike two is definitely the age factor.... I haven't figured out strike three... but I am leaning towards the fact that I am spouse deprived like Coach Jenn... young mom, with kids alone at each game, coupled with military association... yup. I am the freak of the ball team.

I know alot of this comes from the fact I live in an affluent county in which the military is something people support but rarely join. The military installations don't step a toe (or so they think...) into Ho Co as we "Ho Co Military Snobs" call it at work. All this makes me realize that even though I am a grown up... I still am at the bottom of some strange caste system-esque totem pole. I'm not 30 and plan on counting backwards next year, but it feels strangely like I am the teen in trouble on an ABC AfterSchool special... and I am not!

If I were in Texas (sniffle...) I would be the norm... it's not like I had kids at 12 or anything. I'm educated, self-sufficient, and mature -- most of the time. Why do I feel like the "teeny bopper" of coach pitch???

My first blogger blog... I blame Trey

Now, I don't claim to be witty like Trey, nor do I feel I have the most interesting life that people are dying to hear my pearls of wisdom from... this is just another slip in my descent of over-connectivity on the Internet. Ah... well. When you move every couple of years, it doesn't matter much- the Internet is the only way I am GOOD at keeping up. Sorry, friends and family. I am bad and I know it. But, on the upside... I am so far away, there is nothing anyone can do about it.

What I hope this blog will become is a chronicle of the new life I am beginning. I am starting at Uniformed Services University of the Health Sciences, commissioning, and starting on the lovely PhD Clinical Psychology. I welcome any comments and can't wait to have another form of expression! It'll be a release while I am working on all of the suicide related research. Very important work, but it is more important to have that self-care in place, right? :)

So, for those of you who don't know, I am also on Facebook and Myspace. Feel free to chat me up there too! Ta for now.

We'll see how long it takes before I post again here. Right?